sent to live out this life with a minimum of disruption; to carry out its duties, accept its small rewards, all the while pursuing my real objective, the nature of which is so secret that even I
do not know it.
set against myself
brother against brother; painstakingly thwarting myself, then celebrating my brilliant sabotage of the enemy; handing out punishments, then complaining bitterly of their unfairness.
the charismatic despot
ruling with white fingers clenched tight; I am the leader of the revolution; I am the secret police; I am the spy turned double agent; I am the protestors
dying in the streets.