wonder how many times i'm going to write this line:
i'm never going to get what i want
before it stops feeling like a cut,
like a piece torn off
i'm never going to get what i want
does it get easier, writing it? does it
start to feel true, as factual and inoffensive as
gravity, climate change?
she's never going to give me what i want
i've tried handwriting it, typing it,
reciting it, practiced saying it calmly,
an observation through glass
she's never going to give me what i want
of course i've tried screaming it
she's never going to
but there's no one to scream to
give me
like when you try to scream in a dream
what i
but nothing comes out except a gasp
want
and then you wake up
This is really powerful and really beautiful. I hope you're doing ok. Thank you for sharing it.
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