recitation

wonder how many times i'm going to write this line:

i'm never going to get what i want

before it stops feeling like a cut,

like a piece torn off

i'm never going to get what i want

does it get easier, writing it? does it

start to feel true, as factual and inoffensive as

gravity, climate change?

she's never going to give me what i want

i've tried handwriting it, typing it,

reciting it, practiced saying it calmly,

an observation through glass

she's never going to give me what i want

of course i've tried screaming it

she's never going to

but there's no one to scream to

give me

like when you try to scream in a dream

what i

but nothing comes out except a gasp

want

and then you wake up