Thursday, April 11, 2019

recitation


wonder how many times i'm going to write this line:

i'm never going to get what i want

before it stops feeling like a cut,
like a piece torn off

i'm never going to get what i want

does it get easier, writing it? does it
start to feel true, as factual and inoffensive as
gravity, climate change?

she's never going to give me what i want

i've tried handwriting it, typing it,
reciting it, practiced saying it calmly,
an observation through glass

she's never going to give me what i want

of course i've tried screaming it

she's never going to

but there's no one to scream to

give me

like when you try to scream in a dream

what i

but nothing comes out except a gasp

want

and then you wake up

1 comment:

  1. This is really powerful and really beautiful. I hope you're doing ok. Thank you for sharing it.

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